Tuesday, April 3, 2012

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It has been 10 days since I lost one of the most wonderful men that I will ever know... my Daddy.  My heart is so broken, I don't even know were to start picking up the pieces and trying to put it back together.  How do you ever get past the things that you wish you could have had a chance to say, or do.  This morning as I headed to the hospital for my 3rd Chemo treatment, for one moment it slipped my mind that he was gone and I grabbed my phone to text him, and let him know that I was having a treatment today.  Then just as quickly as I had forgotten, it all came back to me.  I am only 26... I'm not ready to do it on my own... I need him to guide me.  One of the hardest parts of this is my children, my older boys I think are starting to understand that he is NEVER coming back, and they are sad.  They want to do things with Grandpa Kenny.  Uh... I guess this is all for today... I am sure I will have many more to come.  Thank you for all of your love and support.
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  1. The Nielson'sApril 4, 2012 at 9:20 PM

    I'm so sorry for your loss heather! You and your family are in our prayers!

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  2. KristyApril 14, 2012 at 8:42 AM

    Heather I cant imagine not being able to say goodbye to your dad- never having a chance to make everything okay and understood before he left. I am convinced in some way he can still hear you. I was talking to Mike about him last night, some silly things I remembered, and some strange silly things happened. Maybe its merely coincidince, but I dont think so. Look for him in your life, and I am sure you will see signs. Take care of yourself, your kids need you like you need your dad. Please do everything you need to do to stay healthy. Thats all I want, for your kids to have you. ALL MY LOVE COUSIN.
    Kristy

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